Just kidding...but seriously!
Will be posting my last pre op vlog shortly (it is uploading now). Today was the only free time I had. I also did all my measurements today and need to do pre op pics here shortly. I think I will just do those the day of surgery though.
Ran to the bank and got the money etc out that I will need for Mexico, so I will be packing just about everything today (with the exception of my toothbrush pretty much.) I don't know that this all has truly sunk in yet... it still feels like a dream. I can't even fathom the changes that will take place for me over the next year. It is truly truly exciting and I feel very lucky to have been afforded this chance to turn things around.
I swear to you this is not meant to be melodramatic, but the day I found out my financing was approved for surgery, was a day I realized I had hope again. Maria off of OH (her blog is Formerly Fluffy) made a great post a few days back asking :
"Did obesity cause you to give up on dreams?"
Simply put yes.
I gave up on dance classes that I loved
I gave up on going horseback riding again
I gave up on ever looking good in clothes.
I gave up on enjoying the beaches anymore
I gave up on feeling truly beautiful
I gave up on myself.
Although none of this feels real right now I feel like I have gained some hope back and some of my old dreams may ressurrect themselves. I feel like this year is finally the year I truly become me and spread my wings.
I will take back my health
I will let myself feel beautiful.
I will enjoy trying on clothes again
I will go to the beach
I will let my creativity overflow
I will create something beautiful.
I will fall in love with myself after 26 long years.
What about you? What will you do after surgery? If post-op, what good things have you done for yourself? What dreams will you rekindle?